With years of friendship on the line
and the dance of personal demons…
it was a lot more pushing
in the wrong direction,
than pulling to the right.
It is all over now!
But I am begging you please,
hold me in your heart a little longer,
ask God to keep me safe…
Don’t forget me tonight.
I thought you were my support.
That I could fall apart in your arms.
Until I was ready to piece myself together.
But you weren’t, and all I was, was broken.
I thought you were my knight.
Yet you had no armor nor a horse.
You were perfect, then you weren’t.
My flaws were apparent and yours too.
I thought you always had the words.
Those right words to soothe my restless heart.
A rush of fire to my dwindling hope.
How wrong I was to believe so.
But I learnt, I couldn’t expect you to be perfect.
Just to understand my imperfections.
You are human, just as much as me.
To myself. To my creator.
I am perfect.
That is my peace.
He has the words to forever guide me.
Like He guides you.
I don’t need a knight when I have a King.
He is everything I always needed, I just didn’t see it then.
There are words floating around in my mind,
a world of pieces without a clear picture.
I know what you want, all for the wrong reasons,
what I don’t know is what I want.
How far am I going to push you,
until I push you away and regret?
How much am I going to pull you in,
enough to leave me broken again?
Mine is a broken heart, too broken to love.
Yours is a broken heart, yearning for love.
Truth be told, there is fire,
a fire burning only on the outside.
Flames rising wild, faced with resistance,
trying to cross over boundaries to the inside.
Being with you makes me feel special,
with most of my world fading away.
Your scent engulfs me, comfortably smiling;
smiling like I haven’t in a long time.
What are you to me: friend or more?
Is this going to end with a friend or a foe?
I care for you, not because I like you,
but because you are deserving of love.
You are a kind soul with an enormous heart,
and my care I can promise you forever.
So, if you are feeling lonely, I’m here;
you can listen to me talk,
while I take you away from your world,
and safely into mine.