You can test the waters of the ocean,
learn to swim against the currents,
but that will never prepare you
for a tsunami,
despite the weather warnings.
It dragged everything I knew
in one swift movement,
left me drowning
for I no longer had an anchor
to keep me safe on the shore.
All the things I was with you,
I now have to struggle to be
I don’t know if I’ll ever
be ready for that.
The silence, it envelopes me, yet I am unafraid.
Voices, they surround me, but I am drifting away.
I want to go back, to what is familiar to me.
I feel like a stranger here, a thief of time.
Trapped among people I know but can’t make sense of.
The loneliness; in the day – blissful, in the night – a curse.
I don’t know what to do but I want to find you.
And be safely wrapped in your arms.
I am counting down the days as they go.
Some slow, some not so.
Drifting and stumbling, slowly breaking down.