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She Will Be Loved

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I miss her. I miss her so much. I think we all miss her.

So, I haven’t seen her in a while. I guess I will just have to live with all the memories that I have of her, and all that I knew about her. I would like to think that she did live a happy life even through all the tough times and the loss of her loved ones; that she had all that she wanted, and gave all that she could. She did have her vices, but then who doesn’t? But she gave, and gave, and gave.

In my opinion of her, I would say that she was a woman stuck in the middle of her generation and the next. Sure she didn’t know how to operate some of those wonderful, make-life-easy gadgets we love so much in the kitchen, but she was ‘hip’ enough to listen to music and sing along in that melodious voice though a walkman, and ‘hop’ enough to dress fashionably enough for me not to be embarrassed walking in the street with her.

She always stuck up for herself, and for her family – loved us all in her own way, spoiling us and guiding us in small ways. Guess mom gets that from her. She looked after all her children until the very end. Made sure that they were all doing well, and somehow settled. And us too, saw all of us at our prime, and the most important of us, doing well, setting a bright example to those that follow behind.

I don’t know what others would say about her, but I hope most of it is good. She was caring, and she always smiled. Always. I remember, she used to tell me every time I tried to get her to try something new – Old is GOLD. I always used to laugh at that. She was always telling me jokes, and about her friends. I always laughed at her friends – the meat man, the fish man, the bread man, the shop man. Guess she was always kind to them.

I’m a bit jealous that I didn’t get to spend much time with her, and that I used to dislike her when I was younger, because she would never let me be lazy over my holidays. She would always find work for me to do. I have to thank her for that now. I’m always on the run, and getting myself into things to benefit my future. I just can’t sit in one place for more than an hour I’d say. She always kept herself busy too.

What else is there to say? I’m a bit sad that I wasn’t there to tell her goodbye. Is it a coincidence that all her children managed to make it home in time to say their farewells? I definitely don’t think so. It’s tough being far away when a loved one has departed and you can’t go to pay your last respects. It’s even worse when you can’t be with your family, and be strong for them. I wish I could be there.

I hope she knows how much we all love her, and loved her, and how much we are going to miss her. We are still young. She is never going to be with us physically for any of our graduations, for any of our weddings, for the birth of any of our children, for any milestones. She will be with us in our heart. She won’t be forgotten. She has woven herself into our lives, slowly and steadily. Placed happy thoughts in our memories.

And that is how she will live on, through memories. In the things we see, in the things we do, in the people we are. At occasions, when we have all gathered, and someone brings her name up, and our mind wanders to thoughts of her which we have kept safe in corners of our heart bringing up mixed emotions. She will watch over us from above, she will continue guiding us in her way.

So all I want to say this time is let the people you love know that you love them. How much they mean to you, for though life may not always be short, sometimes the time we share with each other might be. Never leave with an angry feeling especially when you live far away. Always try to let them know that you care as often as possible, and cherish all the time you’ve spent together, good or bad.

Once loved ones have left this world, they will never come back again. And though it hurts at first, the pain will subside, and life will go on. She was loved, and she will continue being loved by her family, her friends, and all those lives she touched by just being who she is. She was wonderful, everything anyone would want from a grandmother, without overly spoiling you. May she rest in peace and God grant her paradise.

I miss her. I miss her so much. I think we all miss her.