I hope the memoirs in your box have gotten rusty,
while the memories in my mind remain vibrant;
filled with hello goodbyes, joy and eternal highs.
As the time has now come to an end,
we have gone from strangers to friends and back, a complete circle of life;
once doused in color, all burnt out.
The air has gotten thicker and the oxygen concentration
has dropped since you walked away;
making it harder to breathe, but it won’t conquer me.
It’s not that I ever wanted to live without you,
I just had no say in it;
please remain safe junkie, may the world always be your oyster.
The distance grows yet the world gets smaller,
and while the jagged dagger causes chaos in my heart;
I wish you peace in yours and the infinite silence of demons.
May you forever live buried in the depths of my being,
as the light in your eyes, your quirky smile and fierce heart;
resonates through me.
To us, to yesterday, to never after.
With years of friendship on the line
and the dance of personal demons…
it was a lot more pushing
in the wrong direction,
than pulling to the right.
It is all over now!
But I am begging you please,
hold me in your heart a little longer,
ask God to keep me safe…
Don’t forget me tonight.
I could write you
seven billion words of love
and hold you tight
when your demons came for you.
But they were all you knew.
In that moment,
I became the beautiful stranger in the distance.
I wish I had the strength
to break my heart again
while I watched you give into them
but I’m here waiting on this side.
Still holding onto you.
Now while you are
battling your own demons,
I will be all the mercies you are to me,
Because in all your magnificence,
the best you have taught me is
the grace of
Why I wrote this:
My best friend is the most patient person I know and in Arabic it is pronounced As-Sabiroun. He is going through some personal things and just like he has shown patience when I was going through my personal battles, I shall adopt patience with him because of him.
You mean nothing to me,
You never were the ultimate love of my life.
I don’t think about you at all,
I don’t even have floods of memories.
You didn’t change me with your words,
You couldn’t even with your blinding stares.
I accept your silence,
I go on albeit your distance.
You have no strength to break my heart,
You without the courage to love.
I embrace your demons,
I wish you tormenting nightmares.
You are everything ordinary,
You have no power over farewells.