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The Pieces I Wish I Didn’t Need

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As we live each day of our lives, we gather pieces. Pieces of memories of people, of places, of moments. There wasn’t a day where I didn’t fit a piece into my heart on my trip back to my motherland that I can now call home without fear.

Family

I fell in love. I literally fell in love. And realized why people have children and huge families. After seeing all five of them and being enveloped in their scheming, mischief and laughter, I just couldn’t help it. Their selflessness was so rare, I miss it everyday. I miss them everyday.
#Yahya – you see things that you shouldn’t and you do things like you’ve lived longer than me.
#Yaqub – my darling, my cameraman, my DJ, my jealous little drama queen!
#Mohammad – your cheeky smile is in my mind always, brainiac and wise-ass.
#Nabeela – queen, but be gentle, everything will be yours one day.
#Ahmed – someone should kidnap you because you do have a cute smile, you foodie monster.
You are my heart, every breath I breathe.

It was a great joy baking bucket loads of cookies. Of course it’s very strange that all three of you have such different personalities, but then our family is filled with too much spice.
Be awesome. Be yourselves. Be kind. Be us 😉
Ganging up to tease #Shahara with an old crush, who is really drool-worthy now; fighting over clothes with #Izrah; force-feeding #Miesha and hanging her upside down.

My family just got a little bit bigger this time and lots closer! Thank you for letting me into your life and making me feel welcome like I’ve known you since childhood…
#Nizran – Live. You are too young for anything serious. There will be someone new. Don’t be afraid. You have me. Anytime. P.S. Thanks for my first experience of isso-vada!
#Niveen – Don’t work so hard. Take a break. Travel. Try new things. There is a time for permenancy, and that time is not now. P.S. Thanks for improving my Sinhalese immensely!
#Sachin – Very excited for you to be a lawyer. Hope you get a seat. And always remember your family first.
#Shaveen – Calm down. Smile more. Be young. Love your ferocious love of family. It’s beyond amazing.
#Shakeel – Sometimes it’s like you have split-personality, but yet you are adorable. Be nice to your sister. She has your back. Study hard and play harder.
#Raabiya – You are a lost-birdie. I have finally put it down that you’ve got energy to be out-there because you store it at home. Everything will be alright.
#Afraa – Ramadan was super with you. Let’s do that again! Oh.. and another play too, and sneaking you into the IYD party.
#Shehaani – Your kindness is out of this world. You will be great some day and I want to see that. Don’t change a thing.

You, who I’ve grown with, played in the mud with, teased mercilessly, learnt new things with, and shared secrets.
#Arafath, you crackerjack. I love you. But it’s time to be responsible. Sorry for being far, but we are always cool, no matter what. Fighting over cutlets, kievs and bed space is always fun. So were the lifts to work.
#Mizna, engaged! Yey.. Congrats and all the best. Lunches are always entertaining and sometimes slightly confusing.
#Ayeshah da, I still don’t know if it’s a good thing that you are expecting a baby boy or not, only time will tell if it will great or history repeating itself.

Friends

#Raashid, for finally waking up and being yourself completely, for sharing my tears in the middle of the night, for your some-what unhealthy obsession with hot chocolate, for being emotionally up and down, for the love and protectiveness, for crazy ManUtd!
#Geethika&Dino, it started with Old Joes and ended with Jesus Christ Superstar. Sadly there was nothing in between, except TNLOnstage. There is always next time. Every time is a pleasure.
#Alex, don’t ever give up on your voice. It’s beautiful and sweet. Thanks for playing for me and letting me sing beside you on that cool, summer night. Best fun EVER!
#Hishama, hope the maltesers were good. I’m sad we didn’t get a chance to hang out as much. Next time, let’s get out for longer and really catch up. Thanks for all the support.

Baby dolls., the office wouldn’t ever be the same without you girls. Made me feel young and girly. You inspire me to aspire.
#Pathanchali – love your faces
#Khavya – love your gangsta chic style
#Hasangani – oh you sad story
#Surovi, you are a blessing in disguise. Firstly for being a foodie. Next for being a traveller. And lastly, for living on the next lane.
#Park, your noodles were great! Your apartment is lovely. It was really sweet of you to have us all over for a small taste of Korea.
#Husni, wait till your family learns about your girlfriend, you overachiever, foot-in-everything personality!

And the unexpected shocker.
#B, truthfully, this time you took me by surprise, the good kind. Thank you for being awesome always and never letting that awesomeness go. YOU made me miss home! YOU made me feel special. And for once, YOU made me shed a few happy tears. I will never find another like YOU ever.
#R, I’d like to know what’s happened to you? Are you going soft on me? Thank you for coming. I didn’t take you seriously. I should have. It was good to see you.
I enjoyed traveling with you both. Amaze-balls five days, without the unnecessary stress that came along. Photo-bombing was the best, next to the leopard that no one saw.

I’ve got lots of beauty to hold on to, lot of good times, lot of surprises, lot of love!

When You’re Gone

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The time has come to begin a new life, to discover a new culture, to make new friends. This is the road you have chosen to follow, filled with many things you don’t know. As you leave behind the people you have been with your whole lives, the pieces of your heart are missing them. This feeling never completely fades away.

So lately been wondering who will be there to take my place. I know you will need someone to give you strength when you are weak, to give you hope when your candle has blown out, to share your smiles and joys; to be there for you, when I can’t. Will that person share with you, what we had? I wish I could go with you.

You are overwhelmed by all the new faces and you wish that you knew someone, anyone to help you take away this lost feeling. You want someone to show you the way, a light in this cold place. Hold on. Don’t be scared, your destiny will keep you warm. This is where you are supposed to be. And soon you will be standing on your own two.

–We are where we are because we are meant to be there. You seem so far, yet so close. I wish you were closer. Nothing’s going to change destiny, whatever’s meant to be will work out perfectly. I want to go back in time and let it rerun in slow motion, to give us more time to be together, to prepare each other for this new life, apart.

Many smiles and greetings, new names and nationalities, but none like those you’ve left behind. Feel like you’ve been to the upper-side of down, been to the inside of out. You wish it was the way it used to be: comfortable and safe. But you’ve made your decision, and now you must stick by it. It does get better.

–I’m scared too. All these new things I have to know. I want to go back, but I can’t. I hope I find a familiar face; after all, this is a small world. Sometimes I rush to get right to the end; I know I’ll get to this place when I feel the time is right. The summer: when we can all be together again, sharing stories of our new lives, entwining it with the others.

Sometimes you are frustrated, and are finding it hard to adjust all these new things. You pine for home, for family and for friends. I will feel your tears falling. I will hear your spirit calling. And I swear I’ll be there. Maybe due to the time difference we are not available, but technology is really great these days. Call them, text them, email them, or even leave them a message online. It feels nice not to be forgotten too.

— I want to call you sometimes, so I can hear your voice, I feel so much better knowing that you want to talk as much. Even if you are not online, I’ll leave you a message, when I’m feeling lonely. Just stay strong, ‘because you know I’m here for you. Be there for me too. Just because I’m me, it doesn’t mean that I don’t miss you, that I don’t have my moments of weakness. I’m only human, you guys are my life.

It seems like all of the stars are fading away, just try not to worry, you’ll see them some day. It’s good for you if your family goes with you to this new land, even if for a few days. Helps you settle in. And your friends, they shall be there for you. Distance is hard, but it is something friendship can live through.

— Time difference is a killer. I never get to talk to you, and when I do, it’s so short. I have so many things I want to tell you about this new life. And there is so much I want to ask you about yours. But though the distance that’s between us now may seem to be too far, it will never separate us. I carry you with me, in every breath, in every step.

You want to feel like you’re close to something real. You are! It feels different, because it is new to you. But remember, your friends and family wish you well. They have prepared you with the best of their knowledge. Make this dream a reality. Step out of your cocoon and welcome the world into your arms.

— I’m worried about you. I hope you are doing well in your new life. Stay in touch. Don’t forget me. I know you will be down for a few weeks, I was too. But then you’ll see the beauty in the new land, and the fresh perspective its will give you about the world. Even though for now we’ve got to say goodbye, I know you will be forever in my life.

Soon you will have new friends, and will have new memories to share. And during holidays, you will miss their presence in your life. There’s nothing like me and you. Each one is special. Each relationship is unique. And altogether they build up a very fulfilling life. They complete your puzzle. They bring sunshine, the rain, and rainbows.

I don’t know when, confused about how as well, just know that these things won’t change for us at all. You will live your life, and I will live mine. And though they are both far away from each other, different in every way; I shall come home one day, so shall you. And we shall pick up right where we left off, like nothing ever happened.

Time passes slowly, don’t fret. So the days feel like years when you’re alone. It’s not always so. After a few weeks, you’ll wonder where all the time has gone. It’s hard being alone in a new place with new faces. Take it step-by-step. In no time you will achieve a great distance with pride. The new faces will become familiar; the new place, you shall call home.

Be good to yourself, and I shall do the same. You’ll live one more day and make it through the rain. Then you’ll emerge tough and nothing shall bring you down. I have my faith in you, just like you had in me. Sometimes I might feel far from you, but look into your heart and you’ll find me there, now and forever. I shall never give up what we have. But for now, I miss you, and this is all I want to say.

*** “A friend who is far away is sometimes much nearer than one who is at hand. Is not the mountain far more awe-inspiring and more clearly visible to one passing through the valley then to those who inhibit the mountain?” ***