I see snow covered mountain peaks
peeping over peppering clouds,
the rugged land below
enjoying the perils of sunlight.
I see the sea weaving
along the shoreline, silently
and clusters of white
forming villages, towns, cities, capitals.
I see the harnessing of wind
to create energy for the masses,
life being lived gloriously
from the wings that carry me home.
Alas, I brave the journey
in the light of day!
It was a love
like unwanted pennies.
the velvet guitar case;
of a street musician.
that didn’t belong;
Fresh mountain air.
Tainted desert sands.
Eyes that hide secrets.
A smile that ignites fire.
Words so constant.
Actions of the subtlest nature.
I-miss-you never aloud.
Lace against body.
Sweet chemical combustion.
Heart in shards.
Thousand glittering pieces.
Ghosts of my mind.
Passion slow to diffuse.
Take me back.
Be my lover and my demon.
Don’t leave me like this.
Holding my breath.
I hope the memoirs in your box have gotten rusty,
while the memories in my mind remain vibrant;
filled with hello goodbyes, joy and eternal highs.
As the time has now come to an end,
we have gone from strangers to friends and back, a complete circle of life;
once doused in color, all burnt out.
The air has gotten thicker and the oxygen concentration
has dropped since you walked away;
making it harder to breathe, but it won’t conquer me.
It’s not that I ever wanted to live without you,
I just had no say in it;
please remain safe junkie, may the world always be your oyster.
The distance grows yet the world gets smaller,
and while the jagged dagger causes chaos in my heart;
I wish you peace in yours and the infinite silence of demons.
May you forever live buried in the depths of my being,
as the light in your eyes, your quirky smile and fierce heart;
resonates through me.
To us, to yesterday, to never after.
He had always been mine and I his.
For years we kept up this façade
of hiding behind ‘NO’
but in our hearts laid great
tenderness for the other.
Until the secrets weighed too heavily;
the masks dropped
and fragile hearts shattered.
I wanted for us to be
of those that
But all that happened,
was us traveling further away
from each other.
While we are still learning
new things about each other,
somewhere there is
this strange depth.
Where she understands
the wreck my heart is in,
and hates like it is
her own personal pain.
Where she is
slowly doing what she can
to make each beat
a little bit more bearable.
The air is filled with all my neurosis
at losing the people most precious.
These demons just won’t let it rest,
whispering to the right, again on the left.
The dates have changed with time
since way back in twenty-oh-nine.
But how can I forget as time flies by?
It’s another year without them alive.
The people who made me feel so much life,
like strangers fading away without a fight.
I can’t keep losing them like this,
let me not be attached – I wish.
Having said that,
can I please have them all back?
With years of friendship on the line
and the dance of personal demons…
it was a lot more pushing
in the wrong direction,
than pulling to the right.
It is all over now!
But I am begging you please,
hold me in your heart a little longer,
ask God to keep me safe…
Don’t forget me tonight.
Now that you’re gone
my soul has lost its youthfulness
and my heart is tired.
But my eyes that search anxiously
have come to find you in my dreams.
Now the love that they exude can
be set free;
while I sleep in tormented reverie.
Because the December that was
meant to be ours,
wasn’t really meant to be.