Category Archives: The Months: 2015

At the end of the month, write an entry about your month, include every detail that you remember, add a quote that describes the month and/or lyrics from your favorite song that month

#MyDecember

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It’s that time of year
#winter #confidence #freedom #memories #happydays #coldnosewarmheart

 

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Look what I found
#cleaningoutmywallet #onepoundandfiftypence #nothatsnotright #missingnationalday #wheresmydirhamsat

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‘Tis the season of giving
#giftsforeveryone #signedsealeddelivered #whowantsone #onetimeofferonly

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We got lights up
#fairylights #rainynights

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Saturday’s big breakfast
#thebreakfastclub #vegetarian #smokedsalmon #pancakesalldayeveryday #yesplease

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It’s the circle of life
#thelionking #ifinallymadeit #hakunamatata #reddressredlips

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What is a birthday without pizza?
#Goodfellas #chocolatebrowniepizza #thatswherethemoneyis #giveittomebaby #whitechocolatedarkchocolate

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Just like we celebrate births, we acknowledge the departed – may she be with those she loves #gonesixyears #makedua #misshereveryday #doingthingsherway #inspiration

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Hello Mr. Snowman
#imreadyforyou #nomnom #chocolatetoeatchocolatetodrink

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Sparkling away
#christmasball #foodfoodfood #dancing#funtimes #ladieswithclassandsass

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All in a weeks work
#gifts #spectrumoflife #colormehappy #wheremychocolatesat

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All wrapped up
#christmasforeveryone #jobwelldone #sobroke #holidaycheer

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Nothing like a hot mug of love
#winterwarmer #coffeelover #nescafe #limitededition #winterfavorites

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We’ve got jungle laces
#junglelaces #givemesomeheight #livingincolors #HODshocktime

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The million dollar prize
#raffleatwork #ohdearmeitsfrozen #whyohwhy #annaoverelsa #lettingitgo

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Let’s always pray for those we lost
#rememberance #littleones #everywhere #everyday #hellonearth

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Better late than never
#finallycame #fruitcakeandtea #yesplease #meandB #lovefrom @misskayes

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Holidaying in London
#somersethouse #iceskatingrink #ohchristmastree #lightscoloraction #siblingtime

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Feeling the love
#thegoodlife #mybro #mybae #heartfeeleasyandhappy #keepthemcoming #imjustkidding

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Star Wars and he
#siblingtime #homemade #berrytart #teamskywalker #teaglorioustea

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December is not a time to let hopes go
#iwrotethisforyou #nevergiveup #lovealways

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Togetherness
#arroganceofloneliness #iwrotethisforyou #holdinghands #winternights

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Where it all started
#timeswithbaggage #hbd #lovealways #lolascupcakes #whereisourforever #tiramisu #yourfavorite

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Getting on Santa’s good books
#alwaysnicenevernaughty #cookiesandmilk #santabetterlikechocolate

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Cake bombs
#merrychristmas #thecakenest #sopretty #hollyeverywhere

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500s for the win
#onepuzzleaday #only500pieces #anightswork #london #venice #austria #italy #pushingmybuttons

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Actually happy
#loveactually #happymummy #hbdmom #matherdarling #yesteryear

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Hands up to The Nutcracker
#stdavidshall #therussianballet #winterwonders

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Pigging on mums candy stash
 #lastfewdays #keptsomeformyself #qualitystreet #mygreenbar #slightyracial

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Looks like nothing much has changed over the decades
#milkfedmen #ticklemepink #thecolorpurple #linesfromabook #agreetodisagree

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The things you find at
#primark #mydecember #peptalkfrommum #newyearseve #goodbye2015 #whereswaldo #goodman

November 2015

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I have to start with this because it really is the most amazing thing. There’s a website where u type in the emotion your currently feeling and it gives you a Surah/Ayat that correlates with it and I think that’s just beautiful. www.Sujood.co

wp-1450044736021.jpegDidn’t really travel anywhere. Made a small trip to Birmingham for a radiology conference, which is something my heart always needs. Definitely loved their Christmas market. It was proper German and I had my jalapeno poppers – worth getting excited over. I also met a friend after almost 10 years. Awh! It was good catching up about college over cake and then rushing off. Handmade chocolate and homemade cake, hot chocolate and garlic bread, german cookies and stollen.wp-1450044762165.jpeg

I just want to put it out there and say thanks to everyone who didn’t discriminate the Muslims after the Paris attack. I personally appreciate it. It’s sad the number of innocent lives lost in the name of misdirected and ignorant Jihad.

My brother did some charity work – I think it’s because he was too lazy to shave, but I’ll take it. I’m proud of him! 😀
My cousin suggested a song for my #WeekendJam. I literally lolled – I didn’t know they were catching on. Made my day.

wp-1450044800277.jpegI didn’t do any baking. November was a quiet month. But I do want to leave you with one of the most beautiful sunrises I’ve seen for a while.

October 2015

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The month of ghosts and ghouls surely didn’t disappoint. It started off with a little of traveling to the city of Robin Hood and my usual adventures of getting lost because I still can’t tell right from left. Nottingham is a beautiful city and if I could I’d definitely live there. It goes as #2 on my list – Edinburgh will always remain #1. I’ll tell you why. It’s a complete red brick city. I love it. It’s got it’s culture and arts and outdoorsy stuff, the full package. Beautiful stuff. Met up with the lovely Ashley who homed me for 2 days. It was brilliant seeing her after a year, give or take a few days. It was good to walk and talk and chill and watch rugby! Hahahaha!!! I’ve put some pictures below. Nottingham as some great places to see.. The open deer park and Wollerton Hall, the sky mirror (literally), all those red brick homes, an honest to God functioning windmill from the 50s (?) – I was definitely in aww.. Forget Sherwood forest. Didn’t have time to make it up there. It add the whipped cream, it’s a city built on top of an entire tunnel of underground of caves! The cherry – has a wide array of cafes with the quirkiest names ❤

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Oct was definitely a month filled with a lot of not soul searching but dwelling into myself to find all my strength as I pieced myself together with all the things happening in my life, work included. The sick kids were breaking my heart and I just wanted to send all of them home.

Plan in decades. Think in years. Work in months. Live in days. – Matador

I had a lot of great lines going through my mind and produced some decent poetry which I’m relatively proud of. You can check that out on the rest of my site.

It was also #RWC2015. #AllBlack #AllBlacks #AllBlacks. They did deserve to win. The way they ran, those passes, the tries and conversions. Booyah baby! Let’s all do the haka 😀

I’m just glad that I wasn’t left to my own devices this month. Lots of traveling, lots of walks and nature and just breathers. I needed all of it. Had lunch with my previous house mates. 3 girls walked into a pub (lol-sorry there is no joke here), and I of course ordered all-day breakfast because why would you order anything else if you had that option in the menu?! Hahahaahaha. Felt like a rolypoly balloon after that.

Made it up to Merthyr and further up the Brecon to Pen Y Fan smoothly with Leah-man huffing and puffing, moaning and groaning next to me. It was COLD! But it was great. And it’s true what they say – mountain breeze sounds the same as sea waves. The photos at the bottom are from the Taff trail – definitely a good walk. And then cutting through the cemetery to get home. May they rest in peace!

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Alhamdulillah I had a lot of chances to travel and be around people this month. Went down to Exeter again this month to meet Deeps and she managed to get Rajiv and Sandeep to come down from Huntingdon as well. It was just good for my heart really. We set off to Dartmoor National Park and obviously went walking and got lost and crossed barbed wires and climbed steep hills, but we got there eventually. Made a quick stop to Plymouth for food and some sunshine and then stocked up on a load of snacks to settle down and play hours of CardsAgainstHumanity and Buzzerwizzer which was just downright hilarious that we didn’t even notice the clock turn back. The next day we went back to Dartmoor visiting a different site – the waterfalls and streams. It was sunny this time and the sound of the raging water sort of brought a sense of calm over me. Might have been the chance to have Devon made ice cream, yummy in the tumtum. The weekend ended with Chinese food – like the good stuff!!! ❤

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See, we live in a world of false perfection, and layered masks. A world of people so afraid to let themselves be seen, as they are. People so afraid to love completely, and even more afraid to let themselves be loved. Because deep down they’re ashamed of their broken parts. Deep down they think they’re not enough. They think they’re not worthy. But if you have the courage to be seen and loved–just as you are–you will discover something amazing: You *are* enough.
~Yasmin Mogahed

Went for my monthly dose of radiology, met some lovely people. Had some heartbreaking news, but can’t be helped. Will just have to sit and sort out. But I’ve come so far. I can do this. Brilliant minds, loved the interaction. Keeps me on the right track.

I think that’s it for this month. Oh I did do some baking – banana poppyseed chocolate truffle cake. It was so good that it vanished. And chocolate fudge cake – mega drool. Sorry I don’t have pictures of them. They really did disappear so fast.

Songs:
Ed Sheeran – Drunk (that’s all I’ve got)

September 2015

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I didn’t like this month much, but I still had some decent moments. The month started down in the dumps, so I guess you can’t really go anywhere but up from the ground.

Maybe she needed someone to show her how to live and
he needed someone to show him how to love. ~N.R. Hart

I have an intense love for the sea, it’s my safe place – always puts my life in perspective. I love coastal walks, one of the absolute amazing things in this world. Mountain walks don’t even come close. And I’ve got a bestie who understands exactly what that means. Then I found this: “It made her feel small, but free as well.” ~George R.R. Martin

date Dhul Hijjah came and went. I like to think I made the most of it, InshaAllah. Slaughtered my first sheep, well I didn’t do it with my bare hands, but I dealt with it. My flatmate and I made food and celebrated a quiet Eid this time around. eid

My favorite new-age comic – Heart and Brain released it’s first book which I’ve booked as a birthday present. If you don’t know about it, you should – it’s absolutely brilliant.

Actually finished reading a novel after years! Back to medical books now…

Rekindled my friendship with the lovely Mubs who I’ve kinda missed in this odd little place in my life and it was kinda nice Skyping and catching up her highness.

Supporting New Zealand (and Wales) for the Rugby World Cup – it will be a lovely final for sure, with UK over-run with all nationalities.

My brother celebrated his 25th birthday in INDIA! Good on him for actually traveling and doing something different for a change. So proud 😀

To her, if there was nothing to fix, there was nothing to love.
~Christopher Pointdexter

I didn’t travel anywhere this month, so I don’t have any travel photos, but I ended this month in the radiology department which is what I love and I finally figured out why. It’s like spot the difference, put the puzzle together, being an undercover Sherlock Holmes.

August 2015

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August isn’t my most favorite month but it has definitely been great this time around. I sneakily took 2 holidays this month, making use of the last summer month to go trapezing around.

DSC02553 (1280x904)My first was to North Wales. Transport absolutely sucks, but I’d gladly leave the South and move up. It is stunning. Families go crabbing on the weekend. CRABBING! I want to go crabbing and ice cream eating along piers every weekend. I am sad that I didn’t get to see any puffins even after all my walking, but I’ve never had luck with wildlife. So I got myself a puffin pin to make up for it 😀
Conwy is lovely, it has a lovely fish shop hidden on the bay, but you’ll see all the locals with boxes, can’t really miss it. DSC02587 (1280x851)Slightly oily, but very crispy. Parisellas ice cream is great. And the thing I loved most about Conwy was that they had all these quaint shops where you could get music boxes and toys from eons ago that you could never find today. Almost like stepping back in time.

I headed off to Puffin Island in Penmon passing the priory and well, talking to strangers on the way. Sadly walked all the way there, had triple chocolate cake, which was delish.. then walked all the way back.DSC02649 (905x1280) Beaumaris does by far the most beautiful castle, at least I think so. I’m a little OCD and I like my castles to be rounded with perfect moats and drawbridges. Red boat ice cream is mindblowing and there is a line, always! Don’t think you can come back when it’s less crowded; just queue up. The town also has a Popeye burger joint with a burger to meet every character and a candy store called A Penny Farthing, which weirdly reminded me of My Fair Lady. And then I headed off to the base of Snowdon via Cernarfon – which also has a massive squarish castle, but they Hole in the Wall St. Cracked me up! I love holes in the wall. (No PUN what-so-ever)DSC02747 (1280x851)
Next day up Snowdon, dragging my unfit body huffing and puffing, but the views! DAMN! Worth it. 3 hours up, 2 hours down and then traveling back to Conwy.

DSC02794 (1280x851)The following morning I was starting to feel how unfit I was, had to practically lift myself off the bed, and off I went to Holyhead, this time walking at a much slower pace, only because my body was aching in so many places. Walked through fields to get to South Stack. It has quite a majestic lighthouse – again, no luck with the puffins. Saw lots and lots of horses. ❤
Last and final day to Llandadnuo. Very tourist town. Found the mad hatter, but not Alice. Went up to Great Orme on DSC02878 (1280x905)the tramline and to the Copper mines, which was quite interesting – location wise. It was a lovely sunshiney day, so I had a double scoop of ice cream – toffee cheesecake and ferrero rocher. I’m such a child. Then hoped on my train back to the South.

Work – been going to deliveries on my own. It’s been a bit traumatic but let’s not think about those. Doing cranial ultrasounds on my own. Managing to get cannulas in. We have this ANNP student who is absolutely lovely, we hit it off and bless her – she’s been really great. She cracks me up, and I’ve come up with a good line to tell myself and others when shit hits the roof, which it does without fail at some time or the other in our lives – SORT YOURSELF OUT! I also went into work twice when I wasn’t supposed to – pulling Annas, I call it. But the second time, got together with the other Lankan Dr and went shopping in Cardiff. Got a cute dress from the childrens section. Sometimes it is joyful that you can shop in both sections. ^.^

Z got married. Her dress looked lovely. I’m still waiting on photos which will hopefully come soon, but I bet she looked amazing. I’ve been a lil lost this month, but Alhamdulillah for great friends and adopted children who just speak their hearts out. Monu, you are one of them. Random chats, catching up, summarizing the big shit – I got you girl. Anas, you are the other – thanks for just getting out and saying it – you know I got you. You are such a nerd face, you’ll be a great engineer when you decide you are ready to graduate. Oh I do have to shout out to NQB and Arafath because they too got married officially, and my baby girl got engaged even though I specifically told her not to without me. It’s all forgiven. Van, thank you for keeping in touch though I’m terrible at doing that. Duffy, pink smarties bro! 😉 Thank you for returning the friendship and being there to pick me up – fist bump for life ❤ I do have to sneak in M here, just because we had a heart-to-heart after a long LONG time. AND DEEPS IS BACK!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

DSC02925The Drs rotate next month, so we all went out for a meal and drinks and most of us to a Jazz club after, with live music. It was good fun. Just nice to get out of the hospital and dress up, eat, laugh, walk around Cardiff till late and get home at 0130 am after a tiring night shift the day before. That lemon pavlova :O I want another please. #cosyatcosy

Made a trip to Exeter to see Deeps with dark chocolate. Weather wasn’t great, but the company. Gave my heart so much peace. Dragged her along to Torquay, had fancy Thai food, went up on the Torquay Eye – had the starting of a panic attack, so closed my eyes and cringing with her laughing endlessly at my silliness. But that resolved after a Devon clotted cream tea, well with coffee. DSC02990 (1280x905)We bought this board game which we thought we’d play at night, but ended up talking till we fell asleep, so played the trivia/trickery game over coffee in the morning before wandering around Exeter in search of the quay. Found a bookstore with old and interesting treasures and got a book for 3 birthdays. The quay had converted cellars – so of course we went to the coffee cellar 😉 and had smoothies. Because that’s how we roll. I also had this polenta lemon cake with pistache. Surprisingly tasty! I was so sad to leave her. It’s good to have her close though.

Music:
Life After You – Daughtry
Marvin Gaye – Charlie Puth ft Meghan Trainor
Flashlight – Jessie J
Where Are U now? – Skrillex & Diplo ft Justin Bieber
Don’t Be Too Hard On Yourself – Jess Glynne
Are You With Me? – Lost Frequencies

July 2015

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And another month has come to pass. It’s been a heart-wrenching trip through July but it does have it’s ups, which I’m always grateful for and the whole point behind these posts.

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I’ve got not only got my very awesome Malaysian educational supervisor supporting my learning, but the whole department is pro me going forward and starting off on my own. It’s a great boost of confidence to hear that from consultants. Attended 2 pediatric radiology meetings as well and it’s starting to grow on me and get used to everything.

DSC02408 (1280x851)Made a trip to Cardiff with Sharmi for Tafwyl, wasn’t the best – but had a good wonder and had some lovely chinese noodles with halal beef. Yes. That is something to be happy about. Lol. Got to wander around Cardiff Castle as well and tried to make some head-way with picking up some Welsh – massive fail. We also managed to try Welsh beans on toast – which is lots better than the English version, I must admit. Picked up a banoffee frappe from Coffee #1. Much as it was really good, can’t beat Caribou.

Had a blast of a time for Eid. Ran for Eid prayers almost getting lost and had a funny incidence with a grandma who hugged me and wished me Eid Mubarak before her grown children, which was almost epic. Almost big fat family reunion in Peterborough meeting lots of new faces and running about train stations in heels, but the food.. OH.MY.GAWD. so good! DSC02442 (1280x851)And Nene trying hard to convince all of us to buy property there. Spent Sunday stuffing my face with South Indian food and then over at Harpenden with my exciting 4 minions. They are the best. Got invited to the treehouse – such privilege I tell you. Rice told me about the planets. I love that child. He is the absolute bomb. Caught a blazing sunset as well, so refreshing. Monday meet-up with Muna for Malaysian food – we ordered so much and it was all so good, definitely had a food coma for the next few days. Good thing we took a walk through Hyde Park to peak at the Diana Memorial, which I’m sure we passed and didn’t even notice.

Spent 3 days in the RSM library doing research for my interesting case report presentation for the WPS autumn session and made fantastic progress – ie I actually found something on it. It’s definitely getting more interesting and feeding my curiosity. And I finally check out a book as well on radiological anatomy. I will go through it. Promise.

DSC02515 (1280x850)Headed down to Cearphilly for the Big Cheese Festival – missed most of it because of the rain, but got some great photos of their medieval castle. Lots of ducks and swans and duck/swan poop 😉

Decided on the watch I’m treating myself with. It’s a beauty. Can’t wait to have it. It’s a secret – it’s not the conventional one. I never do go for those. But I’m so in love with this, such a beauty.

I did some writing. Got a foot out of my writers block. Felt lots better after.

DSC02458 (1280x903)Went up to Merthyr for my NLS and I passed. *phew and decided that if I were to pick up an accent I’d like a Merthyr accent for now. PCH did have some decent views of the Brecon. Lucky I took my camera with me. Nasty train journey though, that was mostly my fault. I learn.

I got a cannula in on the first try – oh ya baby!

Went shopping with the other lankan doc from work to Cardiff and got cherries on the way back – so I made cake with it. Tried out the Donauwelle (Danube Wave) sheet cake which is from Germany/Austria. So so good *yum. Vanilla cake topped with chocolate cake topped with cherries topped with creamed custard topped with chocolate – heaven I tell you!image

Music:
Poison – Rita Ora
Shine – Years & Years
Shut Up and Dance – WALK THE MOON
Like I’m Gonna Lose You – Meghan Trainor & John Legend

 

June 2015

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Officially started my first ever job. It’s been a crazy month handling ICU long shifts, nights shifts, high-dependency, nursery and postnates. Lot more protocol than anything else – but I’m getting used to it. Some its and bits are stuck onto my mind, that helps. I did my first ever Cranial USS supervised of course and it was lovely. Also did my first shift alone, wasn’t too bad – but I’ve gotta work on my timing. It’s been the month of twins. Got bundles and bundles of them. Also got in my first baby cannula in after several failed attempts. It’s been a month of small victories. I’m all for them and hopefully many more.

Your soul that intoxicates me
day and night,
is also my life force.
Without your life in my life
I am nothing;
just as without me – you are nothing.
~Naked Soul

I made a trip down to the Gower, it rained the entirety of one day and the next was beautiful. Hope you love the the pictures as much as I did taking them. I did some crazy walks over there and I’m sorta still recovering from them. I’ve managed to pull a muscle and that is yet to go back to normal. It was a beautiful experience. I stayed with this lovely convert and her daughter had come in over the weekend as well. It was just beautiful to see how different people embrace Islam – so humbly, very reflective. May Allah continue to grant them Mercy!
Just a footnote – they have this sick milkshake only hole-in-the-wall called The Mad Cow. I definitely recommend it. You pick your size you pick your flavor you pick your topping (that’s optional) and you get this wonderful concoction. I had Ferrero Rocher and Reese’s peanut butter cups – too much sugar I almost gave myself diabetes – side warning. 🙂

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Celebrated my half birthday with my lovely other half – misskayes with a transcontinental coffee date at our favorite coffee shop – Caribou’s (well the Caribou equivalent here – Hi! Coffee) because they do mean mochas. And she had a quiche – for total pun. Might just start a half birthday tradition like this. ❤

There’s something about you, something so wonderfully wicked and terribly sexy. ~Michael Faudet

Ramadan started. It’s been peaceful. Alhamdulillah. It usually is quite turmoil, but this time I’ve got a lot to be grateful for. Additionally you do find inspiration in strange places. Chumma sent me this lovely photo quote about asking Allah to forgive me not to give me – and in all fairness, as humans with our nature to sin, what better time to just sit and humbly ask for forgiveness and turning of hearts and strengthening of faith?! InshaAllah may our Ummah benefit greatly from this month and take a step towards unity. Ameen.

My cousin and cousin got married (on paper) – MashaAllah! May this union be blessed with happiness.

I did so some baking – I finally tried the Mexican Chocoflan. Didn’t look as great as Tas’s – but did taste quite amazing. Don’t know why I hadn’t tried it out earlier. Quite a shame.

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Music – just got hooked on Demi Lovato’s album and haven’t progressed much from there really!

May 2015

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Performed at my first ever Poetry Open Mic. That was some scary stuff. Almost couldn’t see what I had written. But didn’t pass out, nor did I fall off the stage, or do anything else embarrassing. I’ll take that as a win – thankyouverymuch.

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Another friend, in the land down under went through the blog and loved my writing. Bless her! She finally started baking as a part time business, rightly so. She’s amazing.

Spoke with Miz after what feels like ages, and caught up on Courtesan au chocolat, cute irish baker boy and books! ❤

I was falling. Falling through time and space and stars and sky and everything in between. I fell for days and weeks and what felt like lifetime across lifetimes. I fell until I forgot I was falling.
—Jess Rothenberg

Made a trip to the Souk at Qaryat Al Beri. Got some decent photos, wish thDSC01987 (1280x851)ey were better – I’ll make do with these till I do.

I got my visa! Booked my flight! Told my girls! Told my boys!

Got tiramisu! It was delish. Lots better than from the cafe, but the cafe does make a mean pannacotta!

Sometimes you have those moments where you can still surprise your already worldly parents. Took mom for her first chocolate sphere. She loved it. I loved that she loved it. We had a great night.image

Had mandatory farewell dinner. Always such a joy. Nothing too fancy this time. Thankfully. Matching red shoes was absolutely hilarious. AND CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE CAKE! I’m going to miss Magnolias…

Hustle and bustle at the airport with mum and dad and selfie taking. NQB doing a back flip cz I was leaving that night and not the next. He’s a doll! Misskayes and her heartbreaking farewell..

Quick selfie with the bro at Paddington and on the train to Newport. Got a lovely housemate.

Lots and lots of skyping. Its been crazy. But it’s been good at keeping the homesickness away. Now its just regular Skype dates.

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Got a black balloon worthy visitor. Had a great few days along with the bank holiday. Silenced our fear of heights for a day with an inhaler, hand holding and encouragement.

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Starting work, FINALLY! Great team, learning new things everyday. Wonky babies. Saving lives.

Cousin and cousin going down! Sorta conspired with T to get that done – but good for them. Couldn’t be happier for them to be together and start the lives they are ready to lead.

Baking. Hmm. None. Did try peach upside down cake, but not used to the oven yet. Needs to be attempted again.

Songs.. Same old. Maybe a few new ones, but aren’t really coming to mind atm. Shall update.

April 2015

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April is a tricky month. Let’s start with April Fools – definitely the highlight was Miss Kayes’ mom fool on her daughter. Still cracks me up!

lionessI got a random FB message from an old Malaysian friend from college saying that he went through all my poetry pieces and encouraged me to keep writing – honestly, those sort of praises don’t come every day. Not that that is the reason that I write, but it was just nice I guess.

DSC01787 (1280x905)Headed to Dxb with mather (ie mother) and we went flea market shopping – it was insane. I love treasures from other peoples closets. I got myself 4 funky tops for such a throw away price. Then I met up with the skinny Mona and her Komal and there was a Komel meet Komal situation which I find so much joy in, but that’s just me. We said bye bye to Mona darling and her Komal, and ran to the Dubai Poetry Slam – got to watch Abdulnassir perform his “Beyonce” piece, but the killer was definitely Afrah Ateeq! We also did a Hummingbirds vs Magnolia cupcake analysis, Magnolia won. But I’m thinking of giving the original Hummingbirds in London another try when I’m in town.

“Why is it so difficult to live honestly with the person you love?
This world is a bureaucratic mess.”
This was a comment on HONY – facebook

warmestI found a video that highlights Seattles rain art – that’s going on my #bucketlist 🙂

The pleasant, earthly smell on earth after the rain is called Petrichor. I love that smell and I’m glad to have found the right word.

My parents celebrated their 30th (pearl) wedding anniversary. That’s a long time. God bless them and may He make the rest of their days easy.

Checked out the Third Place Cafe. It was fun. I’ve definitely missed Orange Chocolate drinks, and got my fix there. Reasonably quaint place! I’d go again with cafe appropriate people.

I took some Jummah (friday prayer) photographs focusing on children. This is my favorite one. He can’t be more than 10 years old, but his urgency in his rush to prayer – it just caught my heart.

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Finished my #singlepringlecollection of 10 poems. Some weren’t as great as I had hoped.

People break their promises all the time, sometimes out of ill-will, and sometimes simply out of their fragile humanness. It is only Allah whose promises are never broken and whose promises are eternal. He promises us forever – on the condition that we fight against our fragility and selfishness to uphold our promise to Him too.
“So be patient, Indeed, the promise of Allah is truth.” (30:60)

Did you know that chimichangas is a real thing?! I’m trying those out one day!

I finally finally got my sponsorship papers. Now it’s visa time (Getting excited again)…

Dragged dad along with me to Al Muneera to get authentic Sicilian cannolis. I was not disappointed. Yes to cheese always. I also snuck in a few sunset photographs as you can see.

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Passed my BLS for the 2nd time – woot woot. Also gained a massive bruise from it and muscle ache, so please, nobody die on me.

bestGot asked for my ID – apparently I don’t look over 21! -.-

Z visited and we walked endlessly in the sun, discovered a white sandy beach. So beautiful.

No earthquake can shake your hearts – Solidarity for Nepal
That’s where I want to be, helping, putting my hands and heart to use!

I tripped to Alain. Went to sweet palace and got a lil crazy with all the things they have – bought so much goodies.

This month I went on a bit of a baking spree. I made mint chocolate brownies, chocolate cassata cake, strawberry angel cake and pumpkin granola muffins which all turned out surprisingly well. Oh! and lots of pancakes.

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I also finally finished reading Lang Leav’s Lullabies and here are a few excerpts from it that I loved immensely:

  •  What I will tell you is this; it’s okay to be hurting as much as you are. What you are feeling is not only completely valid but necessary – because it makes you so much more human. And though I can’t promise it will get better anytime soon, I can tell you that it will – eventually.
  • Our love – a dead star;
    to the world it burns brightly
    But it died long ago
  • She learned too late that poets are among the damned, cursed to commiserate over their loss, to reach with outstretched hands.
  • The thoughts we each keep
    that are closest to heart
    we think as we sleep –
    and you’re always my last.
  • We’re kids, aren’t we?
    Yes, kids with grown up powers.

March 2015

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There is something beautiful about going to Al Ain. Maybe it’s the memories, maybe it’s the people, maybe it’s just like leaving the world behind and traveling to a place that hasn’t really changed at all. It’s always great to go to AAH – I’m sad I didn’t get to see as many people as I would have liked, but it’s alright. Of course getting pizza with Zaynab and just chilling with her and my broken shoe was definitely worth laughing over. I was super happy to see M. I have learnt that with the boys, distance means distance and if you want a place in their lives you had to be present – technology wasn’t helpful. I got KBs gift for me, she is such a doll – a photo of it is on my IG (Kace.07 — that’s my handle). M and I chilled in the car, we went to feed fish but they aren’t there anymore. I don’t know what happened to them, though I do hope they come back.

The next few days I was in DxB, trying to pack in as much like I usually do. We had chai – the 3 of us. And not the cheap kind. It was such a cute place. I can’t believe I’ve missed out on girlfriends for such a huge part of my life – and I like how we talk about our lives and not so much boys and gossip.

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Then a few days with MissKayes, we tried out Biella. The food was not too bad to be honest – but aunty is a great cook. I’d eat her food any day. Here’s hoping her daughter gets her cooking skills at some point. On the last and final day, chilled out with NQB – always so much fun. Went out to JBR for the 3D art fest which was awesome, it even had a magic carpet! I played the devils advocate and we had cake for lunch – from Magnolia, no less. Then back to see Kayes for the Emirates Airline Literary Fest all the way in Festival City which is literally (excuse my play of words here) at the other end of Dubai. Once that was over, we tried to maybe grab a bite at Hard Rock Cafe – but had to wait to be seated, so we ended up at Cafe Bateel. Too pricey, definitely nothing special. I’m not going there again, nor am I suggesting it to anyone.

Somewhere along the course of a week – I met up with my anime nut as well as the boys. He has become fat. We had an interesting fat conversation along the corniche and back. As for the latter 2, it’s not in my best interest to meet the both of them together. It’s pointless and idle chat, I don’t like to indulge. They wanted to go to P.F.Changs – I know their taste and though I advised against it, they wouldn’t listen. We went, I watched them squirm and make faces – meh, I was happy with my tea, very happy with the pot it came in. Very unhappy that the cashews in the Kungpao chicken is now replaced with peanuts – or has it always been that way? Can’t really complain. It was a decent meal.

That weekend, my uncle came to visit me with a Dr. K cake. I’m still getting used to being called that. I think I’m delaying the great responsibility thing. I met NQB in Abu Dhabi this time after he was done babysitting his niece. We chilled at Caribou. Time flew. We took a left at a no-left turn sign. He will be the death of me. His girl is quite epic too. I can’t wait to meet her at some point. I’m so bummed I can’t make it for the wedding. InshAllah they will have the marriage we can only dream of these days. Pretty hectic weekend, we tried out this place, some Lobster place at Alwahda, it was brilliant. Oh man, perfection. I can’t really pick a better word.

imageFollowing that it’s been a lil busy with the Intl Poetry Fest happening and these guys – BLEW MY MIND! The next day I took mom as well – it was great. She loved it. I’m glad I was there to take her for it. I know she won’t go on her own. Among the readers was a special needs teacher and she did a poem in sign language which she followed with story about her student who recently got a cochlear implant and was now learning to speak. MashAllah – sometimes Allah does really touch you and inspire through different means. Internationally – I’m going to recommend anyone to watch Kane Smego slam his poem “X Chromosome” — it’s such a touching poem. Most of his are. Please when you get a chance, do go through his work. In the rush of all this was Mothers Day, so I dragged mom to Butlers chocolate cafe.

Somewhere in the middle of “spring break” I ventured down to the Galleria as they were doing this 101 smart phone photography course and since I’m absolutely useless at using my phone to take photos, thought I’d go for it. Nothing to lose right? It was crazy helpful and he gave me some really good ideas. Below is something I made at home and photographed at different angles, I liked this one the most. Let’s hope for some more.
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I did take that, it’s homemade. But I’ll try and post some more photos from my phone and even from my camera soon, or in the next month. Sorry I haven’t really carried the camera around too much this month.

Deeps and I finished out 3000+ eMRCS question bank, so that’s one thing sorted. And that leaves April to be full-fledged note-making month.

An OpSmile volunteer I met on mission passed through Dubai, from Egypt on the way to India. Times are tough everywhere. As someone standing on the sidelines looking in, it does look strange, but he summarized his situation and I guess for him, this is his best option thus far. May Allah be with him.

This month also really tested my faith, my trust and my friendships. More on that separately.

Tunes for the month:
-Jess Glynne: Hold My Hand
-Michael Buble: Everything
-Jodhaa Akbar movie: Jashn E Bahaar
-Hollaphonics: Found You
-Glee: This Time
-One Republic: I Lived
-David Guetta: What I Did For Love